A HEALTHY RAGE

I have an anger inside me that won't go away. I am tired and pissed. I am sick of having to settle for whatever I can get and I am tired of having to sit on the sidelines and not being able to do whatever the fuck I want whenever the fuck I want it. I do have moments that are incredibly special and mean the world to me, but then I always have to return to the sidelines. I am fed up that I always try to do everything for everyone and then I usually end up having to spend most of my time listening to the fucking clock tick off the seconds of my life by myself.

I want to scream, I want to rage against everything and everyone.

I am going out tonight and I am going to drink myself into oblivion.

I know all of this is irrational and childish and I don't give a rats ass.

I am blazing with a fury that I can't extinguish.

And I have never felt more alive.